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just found out 4 of those jelly wax candies are only ten calories. i got a new desert
Broke my fast at 75 hours and 52 minutes
I've lost 1.8kg/4lbs and I had a small meal to break my fast under 500 Cal's. And started another fast for consistency.
Ed relapse era,
(I need control again.)
Hey, I'm back (ㆁωㆁ)
Sorry for leaving so long I was ashamed bc of binging for like a week or more straight. (Such a fat ass now gained like 2.5 Ibs) Hopefully getting back on track tomorrow :3
my c@l c0unting app gave me this absolute gem today (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ)
thx bb i didnt know
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pro for me not for thee :P
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any/all
i like purple, stars, stuffies and butterflies
my special interest is languages
current hyperfixations are k-pop and star wars
peer-reviewed + self-diagnosed audhd O.O
open to asks and messages (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) .ᐟ.ᐟ
Update 10/01/2025!
made personal tags:
#bird boned butterflies - general me tag
#birdcooks4butterflies - anything f0od (WIEIADs, recipes, meals etc)
#birdsd!ets4butterflies - gonna start making d!ets
#birdtalks2butterflies - just talking into the void :3
#birdrants@butterflies - ranting into the void
#birdposts4butterflies - daily post challenges
Stats below ^-^
Height: 176cm / 5'9
SW: 100.8 kg / 222.2 lb
CW: 86.9 kg / 191.6 lb
Milestone 1: 90 kg / 198.4 lb ✔
Milestone 2: 80 kg / 176.4 lb ✖
Milestone 3: 75 kg / 165.3 lb ✖
Milestone 4: 67 kg / 147.7 lb ✖
Milestone 5: 60 kg / 132. 3 lb ✖
Milestone 6: 55 kg / 121.5 lb ✖
GW: 50 kg / 110.2 lb
~Wieiad~
10•21•24
Breakfast:
• ?g cashews - ~175c
Total: ~175
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I wasn’t planning on fasting tomorrow but I might now..tbd..
~Wieiad~
10•20•24
Breakfast:
• 27g Mini Blueberry Protein Bar - 104c
• 3 Unsalted Rice Cakes - ~125c
• 12g Chopped Dates - 39c
• 31g Caramel Rice Cakes - 119c
• Vitamins - 100c
Total: 487c
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I broke my fast right before I went to sleep.. I feel like maybe I could’ve lasted until this morning but my family has a history of heart attacks and my heart wasn’t acting like it’s usual self so I didn’t want to risk anything. Once I’m on my own it won’t matter but while I’m with my parents I’d prefer not to traumatize them if they even care enough lol.. I didn’t do too bad with the cal intake though, so ig there’s something kind of positive to think about? - and I’ve started another fast but I’m hanging out with a friend tomorrow and food might be around * . * Hopefully I can completely avoid eating but idk if I’ll be able to fast for as long as I’d like to :c I’ll l bring a can of green beans or something else low cal just in case so I hopefully don’t cause any suspicion. My friend used to have an 3d so she’s already pretty aware of some issues I have but I don’t want her to know the full extent of much I’m restricting myself.. but besides the food stuff- tomorrow should be fun. I’m going to help her move some plants and other stuff to her new house and we haven’t seen each other in a few weeks so we’ll have a decent amount to catch each other up on✨
(Side note: Caramel rice cakes are pretty good. I avoided them for a while but I got some a few days ago and they might be a new safe food for me now, I haven’t decided yet.. Cals aren’t great but it’s the lowest it can possibly be so I have to deal with it or avoid it again)
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~Tw 3d Question~
How effective is purging when you make yourself vomit? And what should I do for after care?
~(Late)Wieiad~
10•16•24
Breakfast:
• 2 rice cakes - 80c
• Pork cutlet - ~450c
Dinner:
• 22g pitted date - 67c
• 5g LS peanut butter - 16c
• 1.5g unsweetened coconut chips - 10c
• 3g dark chocolate chips - 16c
Total: 639c
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Went over 500c and I’m not happy about it but I’m gonna fast until Saturday so that’ll be fun at least
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~Wieiad~
10•15•24
Breakfast:
• 146g ZS Vanilla Greek yogurt - 60c
• 8g Chia seeds - 40c
• 50ml Coconut milk - 10c
• 80g Pumpkin Puree - 40c
• Ground Cinnamon - 8c
• 68g Frozen Strawberries - 24c
• 33g Frozen Raspberries - 17c
• 30g Frozen Blueberries - 16c
• 45g Frozen Blackberries - 29c
Snack:
• 5g CB whole wheat tortilla - 7c
Total: 251c
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Went mia for a little while because my mental health was complete shit and I had no energy to post on here but I should be back now✨
~Wieiad~(lazy because I’m tired af)
10•3•24
Breakfast:
30g carb balance wheat tortilla - 43c
14g FF mozzarella cheese - 22c
31g LF cottage cheese - 23c
10g Guacamole salsa - 19c
40g Dates - 133c
54.2 g Choc mint protein bar - 195c
1 Fiber brownie - 70c
Total Cal: 505
Water Intake: 34 FLOZ
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•Macros•
Carbs - 87g
Protein - 35g
Fat - 15g
Fiber - 22g
Sodium - 897mg
Calcium - 378mg
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I broke my fast at 3:50pm and started a new one at like 6pm..not too terrible ig but I’m gonna fast every other day for about a week to hopefully speed things up a bit.
~Fast~
42.5 hours in and I just got sick * . * I feel a lot better now so I’m not breaking my fast quite yet, but I’m doubting I’ll complete all 93h.. I set it as that many hrs because it’s the most ideal fast I’d like to do, but I haven’t done a fast longer than 3 days in wayyy too long, and sadly I’m struggling a bit physically.. not even 48hrs in T . T but at the VERY least I’ll make it to the 48h mark, anything less is pathetic and I’ll be even more of a disappointment.(I would never talk to anyone else like that btw, only to myself lol)
Starting a fast :3
~Wieiad~
9•30•24
Breakfast:
2 Iron gummies - 10c
2 Zinc gummies - 20c
2 Vitamin D gummies - 15c
2 Vitamin 3 gummies - 20c
2 Biotin gummies - 10c
2 Omega-3 gummies - 25c
T: 100c
Lunch:
6g seaweed w/ sea salt - 30c
High key sandwich cookie - 25c
?g peppercorn ranch chip - 13c
Pure Protein chocolate mint bar - 180c
T: 248c
Dinner:
50g egg whites - 27c
FF shredded mozzarella - 10c
T: 37c
Snack:
324g Cucumber with peel - 49c
159g Carrots - 65c
T: 114c
Total Cal: 499c
Water intake: 51 FLOZ
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I hung out with a friend today and I brought all of the snacks I have atm in hopes that she’d eat some, I haven’t binged while I’ve had them but I’m worried I will and I want them gone asap * . * and she did eat some but I ate a little too so she wouldn’t suspect anything..she gave me half of one of her chips to try as well and usually 1 chip is around 10c-15c but I counted it as 13c to be safe. But I’m going to bed soon and I’m definitely not eating again tonight so Im just glad I didn’t go over my cal limit and can sleep peacefully😌…kind of lol
~Wieiad~
9•29•24
Breakfast:
2 Iron gummies - 10c
2 Zinc gummies - 20c
2 Vitamin D gummies - 15c
2 Vitamin 3 gummies - 20c
2 Biotin gummies - 10c
2 Omega-3 gummies - 25c
T: 100c
Lunch:
125g Chicken breasts - 134c
43g Sweet potato hash brown - 65c
T: 199c
Dinner:
85g Oikos TZ Vanilla Greek yogurt - 50c
8g Highkey choc mini cookies - 37c
8g Highkey double choc brownie mini cookies - 40c
3 Highkey sandwich cookies - 70c (I forgot to weigh them T . T)
T: 197c
Total: 500
Water Intake: 51 FLOZ
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~Macros~
Carbs - 63g
Protein - 40g
Fat - 18g
Fiber - 13g
Sodium - 1,008mg
Calcium - 143mg
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I lightly seasoned the chicken and put pepper on the hash brown, and I weighed the seasoning but my scale stayed at 0 so I can’t track it as easily. I’m just gonna add it as a few calories and consider my total intake to be 500…Not too bad of a day tho. Sodium is high but there’s days when it’s really low so I’m not too concerned; I drank a couple diet cokes and that’s what pushed it so high.
Just saw these on tt and ommggg they’re so cute!!!!
~ Vent ~
Something I keep thinking about is that my childhood friend told me ~4 months ago that she couldn’t imagine me skinny after she saw how different the pantry was at my parents house. Which is valid for her life experience with me, and great motivation, but wtf…. I’m kind of scared to meet up with her again after I lose more weight. I don’t want her to say anything else about my body.. and she’s one of the luckiest people on earth because she grew up SKINNY, and literally just because of genetics. Her whole family is thin.. lucky mfs lol -but we used to hang out frequently and we’d both eat a lot growing up, and she still does. The last time I hung out with her, she got a honey bun from a convenience store after she ate a sausage the length of a paper plate, and a slice of chocolate cake like 30mins-1 hour before… It’s possible she has some mental stuff going on as well because of struggling to gain weight, but to make such a comment about another person isn’t very mindful. My brain is kind of taking it as “I can’t imagine you being a healthy weight”. - not that I wanna be lol - but sis basically said that without actually saying it.. She knows I grew up FAT AF, a damn boulder, so I’m just struggling to understand how she could say that. In most cases, a persons health is the most important thing, and what she said really makes me feels like she wants me to stay big subconsciously. But, she picked the word skinny and not healthy, so maybe I’m just thinking too much into it lol.. Either way though, it’s still motivating me to do better so ultimately it doesn’t matter, but it does make me anxious about my relationship with her; and the pantry is so different now too compared to what it was the last time she saw it. So actually, I am very scared of her coming over lol.. and I don’t like that I feel that way, I love her a lot. I’m just not as comfortable around her now :c
~Wieiad~
9•27•24
Breakfast:
111g Carrot slices - 46c
84g Celery slices - 12c
19g Small tomatoes - 6c
48g Red grapes - 33c
80g Plums - 37c
Lunch:
54g Peanut butter chocolate protein bar - 208c
Dinner:
43g Brownie batter puff protein bar - 151c
Total Cals - 493
Water Intake - 68floz
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~Macros~
Carbs: 71g
Protein: 33g
Fat: 12g
Fiber: 11g
Sodium: 820mg
Calcium: 218mg
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~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~Decent day, it could’ve been better. Tomorrow I’m gonna start taking some vitamins, but the bad thing is that all of them combined are 100 cals * . * I got gummies so maybe that’s why it’s so much. I just have a really hard time swallowing pills so I thought gummies would be better for me, but idk…the only thing I can do is wait and see how it goes but I’m a bit concerned lol
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~Breakfast~
9•27•24
•Details•
111g Carrot Slices - 46c
84g Celery Slices - 12c
19g Small Tomatoes - 6c
48g Red Grapes - 33c
80g Plum - 37c
Total: 143c
•Macros•
Carbs - 32g
Protein - 3g
Fat - 0g
Fiber - 6g
Sodium - 146mg
Calcium - 81mg
I’m not really a tomato fan so I only ate 1 and half instead of 3… and the amount of protein is pathetic, but I’m nearly out of fresh fruits and veggies so soon I can focus more on macros. I’m not using my own hard earned money to buy groceries rn so the least I waste the better.
~Wieiad~
9•26•24
Breakfast: Blueberry protein bar - 180c
Lunch: N/A
Dinner: 191g Plums - 88c
109g Kiwi with skin - 66c
140g Red Delicious apple with skin - 83c
87g Oranges - 41c
~Macros~
Carbs: 92g
Protein: 15g
Fat: 7g
Fiber: 17g
Sodium: 331mg
Calcium: 141mg
Total cals: 458
Water intake: 68 fl oz
Not too bad ig…. Just glad it’s not above 500 lol
I’ve felt my heart beat being crazy for the past few hours so I ended my fast before I really wanted to :c
Side note: These protein bars are amazing! A bit pricey and 180c… * . * -but very good! And not only did it kind of help my heart beat issue but now I’m definitely not hungry lol 10/10, do recommend✨ I have another flavor by the same brand that I’m going to try tomorrow :)
Thinspo of the Day
Wanting to give up your diet?
Here some options of what to do instead!!
• Read a new book
• Research a topic you are interested
• Save pins on pinterest
• Study for college (if you already study, study some extra topics ;)
• Learn a choreography
• Do your nails
• Research about beauty products and their reviews
• Go watch a movie/kdrama/documentary
• Study about your spirituality/faith
• Talk to your friends
• Create a blog and make it cute
• Create posts for your blog with tips that helped you, moodboards and inspos.
Good luck ♡
xx, - A
fiquei de férias dia 20, ai agora to estudando genetica molecular pq não tenho nada pra fazer e é um a materia do semestre que vem KKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
É bom pq distrai da fome ai me ajuda a manter a dieta e ainda me adianta coisas pro semestre que vem, antes estava lendo iron flame, estou tentando chegar na página 500 hoje pra ve finalmente acabo esse calhamaço.
Starving and manifesting ✨
Manifesting -5kg for everyone who reblogs
why do i ruin all of my progress.
i’m so proud of myself for the first time in forever omg
i’m eating >1000 cals per day naturally with no restriction?? who even am i 😻
i sometimes just put off eating for a while then end up forgetting omg
i prayed for times like these 🙏